AnalogBirb

So much has happened in the past year. My ex and I separated several months ago. That was only the beginning. I fell into a depression (I say that as if I've gotten out of it). All my money went into spending time with friends which didn't help my financial situation. My ridiculous debt, though it has shrunk slightly hasn't improved as much as I thought it would have. I was lost and scared. For a while everything seemed hopeless, and sometimes it still does. It's just so hard to process all the steps I need to go through. Everything feels so hard, so overwhelming. It's easy to just sit around disassociating as those challenges grow ever so larger. And although there are days I just want to lay down and die, I know that I'll eventually overcome these hardships. Even if it takes a while, I know I'll eventually get there. I just hope I can keep it together long enough to get there.

October 23rd, 2013. It's been about a year since my first journal entry. It's been 6566 days, and about 15 hours since I was born. I make 6575 (18 years) in 9ish days (too lazy to actually come up with the math). Oh man, how things have changed so much since then. Work, school, my social life. I've met great people. Relationships have ended. Stress piled on. But hey... I turn 18 in a couple of days. I'm so tired, so sick of this bull shit. So I got my permit, I got my job, and hopefully I can get another job to rake in more money. Maybe then I'd be able to afford an apartment and live it out in town by myself or with another. But first I gott

As every day passes I find that I want to leave this god forsaken school even more. First, the students here are very disrespectful to the teachers. Secondly, almost none of them take the work seriously. In fact, when it comes to tests they will literally cheat in front of the teacher. Thirdly, they all piss me off. Every day it's "Oh my god, what's the answer to this" or "Do you wanna fight" or "Why do you hate me?" It's because I'm so fucking done with you idiots. Fourthly, some of the teachers here can't even write properly. This one teacher I have will write her sentences with errors and when we correct her she says to just correct it our